Kirlia

Back again~

2008-10-06T20:06:39Z

Wow, that was kind of a longer absence than I expected to take...

Everyone needed me back at the theatre suddenly; they said it was urgent, so I teleported there without letting anyone know. After I got there, they kept me so busy I didn't get a chance to let anyone know I'd be gone; I'm sure I have a lot to make up from classes. I did try to keep learning school-related things while I was at the theatre, but it was kind of hard with everything else I was doing and I wasn't entirely sure what was being taught back here at school.

I see that my room was moved in my absence! I haven't met my new roommate; I hope he doesn't mind where I've put all of my stuff... I have a bit more with me this time around ~~because Mom wouldn't let me leave without taking everything I possibly could, even though I don't need most of my stuff here~~ and I don't want him to feel claustrophobic at all.

I'll probably have to go back to the theatre more often than I did before, but I'll try my hardest to actually notify people ahead of time so that I don't just disappear.

Hm, I know I had something else to say...
Oh, yeah! Charmeleon, how is Rasputin doing? I'm sorry for leaving you two without saying anything; I hope that taking care of him on your own wasn't too troublesome.

:)

2008-08-09T07:54:52Z

Rasputin did great in class! He didn't get first, but he came really close to first. I'm taking the loss a bit personally, since agility was supposed to be what I was working on with him, but it just means we'll have to work a bit harder~ I might ask an old friend from the theatre for some tips ~~Mandy would really know a lot more than I ever would~~; it would probably help a lot!

I've been, er, not attending as many classes as I probably should be ~~again~~. It's partly because I've been trying to figure out plans for helping Rasputin out, but also partly because... well, the classes have been kind of "off" lately. :/ I've been sensing weird emotions from classes. I don't know, I mean, on one hand I really shouldn't be skipping classes just because they're a little weird, but on the other hand, I still don't know how well I handle conflicting/really strong emotions, especially in large amounts. And when the emotions I sense are mostly a mixture of "terrified" and "exuberant"... I really don't have any idea what to expect.

I'm hoping that eventually the classes will calm down a little, and then I won't shy away from them as much. :) I can't exactly learn new things without attending the classes, right?

Rasputin is picking up on the whole ballet thing really quickly! I was worried at first--because really, has anyone ever attempted to teach a spider ballet before?--but wow, he proved that I didn't need to be worried at all! I'm almost afraid he'll catch up to me and he'll take my spot back at the theatre. :P
But if we're getting in second place and not first, that means that while I'm doing something correctly, I'm not doing this well enough for us to win. The only solution is to try harder and maybe change things that don't seem to be doing anything.

This reminds me of the dance competitions I used to be entered in all the time! :D Training was difficult, but I did take home my share of 1st place trophies~ And since Rasputin obviously has the skills to succeed, it'd be a shame and a waste if I didn't try my hardest to help him shine. If I'm his "mom", it's my job to help bring out his natural talents, right? It's kind of a shame he probably won't be touching anything to do with ballet or just dance in general after this, though... he really does pick up on the techniques quickly! It makes me feel very proud. ~~I wonder if this is how Mom and Dad felt when I was younger...?~~

Rasputin~

2008-08-01T17:48:59Z

The project for sex ed. really is fun, I think! I've been entrusting the actual training to Charmeleon, since I'm pretty sure he knows a lot more about it than I ever will, but I've still gotten to visit with Rasputin every once in a while. :D I'd never seen (or heard of!) a Skulltula before this project, so it's fun learning things about them while taking care of one. I've never really gotten the chance to take care of anything before, either... but I seem to be okay at it!

I really didn't think Charmeleon would let me try and teach Rasputin ballet-related things!

It was... difficult, but I actually managed to show him a few basic things and he eventually repeated them back to me! :D I never got to help any of the trainees at the theatre (my "trainers" thought it wasn't something I should be doing, I guess?), so it was really fun~ And I feel a lot more like I'm contributing now, since I got to help with this!

I'll probably need to see him a couple more times for it to actually do something for him long-term... It'd be easiest if he could practise (at least barre work) every day; center work daily (with barre work for warming up) would be ideal, but even the smallest amount of ballet will help him out. It'd be amazing if I could somehow get him to learn how to dance en pointe--he'd need so many shoes; I don't even think that'd be possible, his feet are so small--but if his feet are that small, is he technically dancing en pointe already? I'm not going to do anything other than what will help with what Charmeleon wants, which means I'm really just concentrating on basics, but it's still amazingly fun and it's reminding me that I need to keep practising, myself. I don't want my own Skulltula to get better than me~

I find myself wishing more and more that I would've paid more attention my first two years here; I bet a lot of interesting things happened and I missed them completely! I could've been practising dance and just random things and ~~I might've been able to go home by now~~ I wouldn't have effectively wasted two years doing nothing. (Which, really, is completely unlike me.) I bet if my little sister were here, she wouldn't have let being sent away stop her progress at all--but then again, she is herself and I am myself and trying to compare the two of us is pointless~ It just shouldn't be done.

But really, I did grab those extra rehearsal materials last time I visited the theatre... I should sit down and look them over completely. If I find anything interesting, I should practise really hard. I may not be the strongest one at the theatre when I return (Mandy has been able to lift me with one finger since we were kids; I'm pretty sure I can't ever top that), but I can try to be the most dedicated!

If you want to see long-term (and more noticeable) improvement with his agility, I'll have to see him for more than one afternoon. I won't tell you what we did, since you asked me not to say anything about that, but I will say that it went well. :)

dreamofballet @ 2008-07-23T13:02:00

2008-07-23T18:29:20Z

It feels good to be back (again)! :) Right after the trip to the hot springs, I went and visited my family and friends back at the theatre. It was really nice seeing everyone again; I even got to perform! I didn't have a major part or anything--I was a maid or something, I think--but it was still really nice to be back with everyone again. It felt natural.

But now I'm even farther behind with schoolwork, haha... I should've brought some along or something. I'm sure I'll be able to make it up, though! As long as I work hard and don't give up, anyway~

What I really need to do is meet some people! I keep saying I'm going to this year and then I keep missing school. I don't know how I expect to meet other students when I'm nowhere near them. :P

Okay! Starting now, I am making a promise to myself to be social and actually go to class! I don't want people thinking I'm a slacker or a loner, because I'm definitely not either. :3

Although... looking at what other people are talking about, it seems like some bad stuff has been happening? Maybe it's a good thing I was gone for a while...

((OOC: I am not dead! ...yet! Epic cleaning/the end of school/driving stuff/an incident involving pollen (...don't ask) kept me away for a while, but it won't happen again. I feel bad about being gone during the whole Springs thing especially, because I planned on having Kirlia meet some people there. D:))

Er, whoops...

2008-07-07T01:22:19Z

I, um... guess I shouldn't have tried to jump right into the whole "focusing" thing.

~~Is everyone in this school crazy?~~

I tried to focus on the emotions of the school--mostly because I thought it'd be similar to the emotions of an audience at a performance, and I know I'm supposed to be working on ignoring distractions--but I guess I didn't realize how much it'd affect me in my human form. I didn't think there would be so many conflicting emotions... has it always been like this? I'll have to start with just the people around me, I think, and work from there... I think I'll be staying in my normal form for a while, too... just in case.

I can't believe I missed almost a week of school because I was so disoriented, though... this was supposed to be my year to turn everything around. Oh well, what's done is done; I'll just have to work extra hard to make up for it!

Oh, and I have a room and a roommate now! :D Bulbasaur, I think his name was? I'm really looking forward to meeting him, especially since I haven't really gotten a chance to make friends like I wanted to.

((OOC: Haha, I am so sorry for disappearing for a week. x__x Family issues and other things popped up, and between them and the 4th of July, I didn't have any time to use the internet at all. I promise it won't happen again, though! Kirlia is going to be a good student and go to classes and other such things. Yay.
Also, he was out somewhere with no people for most of the time he was out of it, to clear his head. I don't know where that somewhere is, exactly, but, er... yeah.))

It's good to be back! ♥

2008-06-28T06:12:55Z

Another school year for me, and I am definitely ready for it! It's kind of strange, I didn't realise how much I missed this place until I got back!

This year is going to be so much better than the last two years, no matter what happens. I'm going to actually make friends and try hard ~~instead of moping and just barely passing~~. I've probably got a lot to catch up on, which will take some work... but I'm willing to at least try to get back to where I'm supposed to be.

Speaking of getting back to where I'm supposed to be, I need to find time (and a place?) to practice ballet! I can't believe I let myself slack off with that, Mom and Dad would be so disappointed if they knew... I wish I knew what exactly I was supposed to be practicing, though. I can always practice my positions and pliés, I suppose! It'll be fun and useful; you can never practice the basics enough! :D

Ooh, I wonder if there are any other danseurs or any ballerinas here! I should've been checking up on that from the first day I got here, it would have been the smart thing to do. I've got plenty of time to ask people now, though, and I will be sure to use it! I don't think I've seen any around, but you can't always tell by looking~

I'm kind of rambling, whoops! I'd better stop before I change topics again. Maybe if I go wander around, I'll meet someone? ~~I hope no one gets offended if I don't recognize them from earlier years, haha...~~